CT Results

Hi all

Just a quick note to say that my CT results of my body are fully clear. No more tumours.

So 10 down and ten to go.

I am so relieved. Silly as I feel lucky. Thank god and all of you for your prayers that worked.

xx

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Hi all

You must all be wondering why I am still in Cyprus.

Well I’ve been really poorly for three days.  I have an over active stomach at the moment.  I’m brave but my stomach tells me otherwise ha.   I was booked in for my CT scan this morning and it took every bit of energy I had to get dressed and get down there this morning at 8am!

Still I did it and now I need those results to take to Germany with me. I hope they are clear.  I also needed to have my Thyroid tested too which I got the results off.

My oncologist also needs to get my report ready.  So it’s not as simple as, I’ll just hope on the next flight to Bamberg I’m afraid as preparation is required.   Plus trying to get a flight to that place is like trying to get to Far Far away in Shrek!  Are we there yet?

I am doing well. I am winning. They have not overtaken my mental capabilities and I am actually quite normal. A bit snappy my husband might say… growling and grumbling but considering I wake up knowing that I am dying every day I’m quite pleasant to be around.   I may as well you know get on with it right!

So, once I have all paperwork in hand I’ll be off.  Here’s hoping for a nice clear neck, abdomen, pelvis and groin results tomorrow.  10 tumours I think is more than enough for quite a few lifetimes don’t you agree!

Much love to you all and thank you so many for your donations already.  I will be at the events in thought and if you have a laptop or some kind of internet connection I’ll skype you from Germany…

Ja ja.. ich bin on my way.. 🙂

 

A sigh of relief

So I got my results today.  They had all finished for the day and were all sat in the room and I received my results and got given the all clear. So thats a clear brain (dont comment on that please ha), a clear neck, clear chest (from last time), clear abdomen and pelvis. I was so happy and I was with my son I must have kissed him so many times on the way back to the car trying really hard not to cry from happiness.

So all that I need to do now is see the oncologists on Friday morning, and get my results from the down there doctor.. lol

Yay for clear CT’s and yay for no melanoma. Thank you all for your prayers and well wishes.. they worked.

xx

CT scans suck

CT scanning machine

Well I arrived late at the hospital again yesterday because I forgot my doctor’s note at home. I got my bottle of gross water and proceeded to the cafe to drink it. It was awful. We’ve all had to do it, but I don’t know if other countries flavour is as bad as mine? What does yours taste of? A whole litre of aniseed powdery water. Two glasses straight away then one every fifteen minutes. It’s meant to go in via the mouth so it will light up your intestine. I have to say I really struggled. I was gagging all over the place which in turn made me feel really ill.
There were a few others waiting there. This lady told me how her son in law died six months ago from melanoma. Said it all started a year ago by a mole from his back and after they removed it and he had a bone scan and he got told he was ok, he never went back to the doctor. He then got metastasis in his armpit, a very very large lump and after that he just gave up the fight. Said he still went in the sun wasn’t careful and that was that. Sad story.
I didn’t go in to scanning room till about 1130. After the warm pissy feeling was over I was done and someone came in and said, we need to give you an ultra sound. I crapped myself. So did my mum and sister. So off I went to this dark room again with the same doctor who had done my boobs a few months ago and he gave me a neck scan. I watched as he went over something which to me looked scary and I thought that was it. I was done for. But he finished and said all is clear. What a sigh of relief. No sooner had I got off the table then when he got me back on it to check my womb. He said my cervix looks enlarged and that I need to go and see the lady bits doctor. Great I thought. More invasive tests I can’t wait.
So I walked out of the room and my mum, sister and that lady where waiting for me holding their breath. I said ALL CLEAR.. my poor mum must have aged 10 years whilst I was in that ultra sound room. The was a huge waiting list outside you see and the doctor told them all to wait cause he had to check me.
I didn’t leave till 12:20! A long day at a hospital that made me feel drained and rough.
I came home and waited with anticipation to go and see my gynecologist.. NOT. He did my c-section though so I figured he’s seen it all before but no matter how many times you go it really doesn’t get any easier and unless you are a woman you can’t possibly understand how awful it is. The good news is that he said that all appears to be normal but I won’t get my results till Friday next week.
So as far as everyone is concerned I appear to be normal. haha (if only they knew) Official results for CT on Monday and other test Friday.
Today I have a stupid cold and slight chest infection. I feel hung-over even though I had nothing to drink. It’s the weekend though so that good. Going out with my husband tonight to cheer myself up.
I miss having a job even though with everything that is going on and all the tests I’ve needed I would have been away a lot, its hard trying to find a job in my current situation and I feel very upset that I got fired whilst they all knew I have malignant melanoma to deal with too. But at least I can hold my head high. Ihave applied for a few jobs and still waiting to hear about the other one I went for a few weeks ago as position doesnt open for a while so fingers crossed for that.

I hope you are all having a nice weekend. 🙂

Tests and Results

So I went for my CT scan on yesterday.  The usual people where there and I was late cause I got the times mixed up and they were actually worried about me. Getting used to seeing me now.  They got me all ready with the butterfly and off I went.   It doesn’t seem so scary anymore but I could think of other more fun things to do! I also go prepared with a dress with no buttons and no metals so I don’t have to change into one of those drafty robes.. lol

Anyway, they called me after I left to ask some questions and then the doctor said it was clear. ALL clear.  Which means I’m all clear again.  Talk about a roller coaster of oh shits and sighs of relief..

I spoke to the secretary of the oncologist I was being referred to and she said he looked at my scans and that he confirmed they were clear too!  So I was referred back to my radiologist. I have no idea whats next as she said I’m back on the watch and wait list again..I am going to see my first oncologist sometime next week to see what my options are.

I came across an article about vitamin supplements and malignant melanoma by the daily mail. It says that it can speed up tumor growth especially in women. You can read it here but it advises not to take pills containing vitamin E, ascorbic acid, beta-carotene, selenium and zinc http://www.dailymail.co.uk/health/article-1315724/Could-daily-vitamin-pill-cause-skin-cancer-Scientists-fear-speeds-tumour-growth.html#ixzz10qblvN00 

I’ve also been told that over exercising can harm you as your body needs to fight cancer and not focus on building your muscles! 🙂

So all good news again for me. I feel blessed and lucky and supported by many. Thank you 🙂

Having the right attitude is the key

Since I got the news, every day I got up it took an effort for me to smile, walk even breathe as I just couldn’t be bothered.  Even my son couldn’t help as I was afraid of what could be and wasn’t embracing the what is.

I have never felt so upset in my life, it was like the biggest heartbreak ever, the kind you feel as a teenager when “the love of your life” dumps you during school break time! I thought my world was over, I thought I was going to die, I thought the worst. And I couldn’t snap out of it. I said to my hubby “whats the point of being optimistic? I was optimistic last time and where did that get me? What have I got to smile about? I got fired, now my cancer is back and although I am grateful for my son and you I may not be here to enjoy it anyway, so what have I got to be optimistic about?”

Then a friend of mine from England sent me flowers via her mum who has a flower shop in Cyprus.  They really cheered me up. I’m a sucker for flowers, always have been.   So that’s when I found my smile again! I realised its ok to smile even though my cancer came back and that its not the end of the world and that I am strong and healthy and I can still fight it and I have many years left in me yet. It could still be a lot worse.

So today I went to see my old oncologist at the Paphos hospital. He already seen me prior to my radiotherapy.  He was clearly concerned that my melanoma came back but after a good feel, and I mean a really good feel of shoulders, neck back, armpit and of course out came my over exposed right boob he said that he’s pretty sure my CT scan on Monday will come up clear. I asked about treatmenat and  I told him I don’t really want to have interferon, I want something stronger, something that will really help me. Chemo.  He said to have my CT scan on Monday, see my other doctors in Nicosia and then speak to them after as there is this drug that is meant to be quite good for melanomas. (He didn’t specify what).  I also got to see a friend from the bus journey, Lady B. She always makes me feel happy and makes me laugh too.

So I felt more optimistic when I left his office. I felt cared for and concerned for and he gave me hope.

So the next time your friend feels really down send them flowers. Cause you will be surprised how much it can effect their whole outlook on life and if nothing else it helps them find their smile again, which for me gave me the right attidute.

Thanks Elena for helping me find my smile again. I cant wait to see you soon. xx

🙂 <– me smiling!

Scan day results

Its so nice when you go down to have tests and everyone recognises you. I mean its not nice cause it means you have been there often cause you are sick but its nice that they treat you like a friend. Its very important to feel comfy around people like that. They deal with terrible news daily so I cant imagine they have an easy job! I always make an effort and laugh and joke with them.

George, as usual told me off for having a nose stud and he insisted that next time he will not allow me to have a scan with it in.  I argued back.  lol I am what I am and I do what I want. Poor George.  The lady that injects me with the warm fuzzy feeling fluid is lovely too. She is from Greece.  They all asked about Bob and she had a good browse at my scar. I think her name is Charoulla, but I’m not sure anymore.

The scan only took 5 or 10 mins and they covered my lower regions with a heavy duty anti x ray blanket thingy.  I assume thats what it was.  As it was heavy duty and he said its in case I want babies..ha

I didn’t have to strip this time and wear a gown.  I was pleased to say this to George, he said why? Aren’t you wearing a bra? lol Kinda strange when a man you dont really want to know, knows that.  But I have one of those nice padded boobed tops that does not require a bra as you cant tell if its cold or not.. lol

The doctor overseeing me said its all clear! We didn’t find anything.  WOW how amazing was it to hear THAT.

Mum and I went outside to have a big fat sarnie with everything in it then I went to see my surgeon at the clinic who I also shared the news with and he told me that Bob has to stay with me till Thursday. Darn it.

Then I had to go back and get my results and the same doctor that was overseeing me said I need to have a routine mammogram cause there is a small cyst in one of my boobs.  Nothing to worry about. I’m trying not to worry about it.  But after what I’ve been through I cant help but be a little worried about it.

My second opinion results are not back yet. So I need to wait till Friday for them.   After that I get to experience pancake boobs. They flatten them between two planks of something for an inside view.   This should not be difficult as after my son’s hungry appetite when he was a baby they aren’t quite what they used to be and I’m sure they’ll just lay down flat and save the doctors a job! lol   The joys of motherhood are many.

I’ll leave you with something that made me laugh..

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