No news

I haven’t updated this for a while so I thought id ramble for a bit.  I still haven’t had news from my biopsy that was taken out on the 4th.  I have had my stitches out and I have to say the surgeons did such a fine job you can’t even tell I had another minor op there.

My friend came to visit me and said I heal quickly and that I have great skin! I said yes I have great skin but its trying to kill me, yay for me! haha Its ok you can laugh at that. 🙂  I’m a little multi coloured under my arm now but I am using bio oil to reduce scarring. It has come a long way since its toasted state.

I am due to see my oncologist next week for my three month check up already! These check ups are odd. He has a good feel of my neck and shoulders and does the tap tap thing everywhere. I wonder if he is looking for an echo? Cause he wont hear it under my skin.. there’s too much food in it.   I seemed to have got quite podgy recently so I’ve decided to join a gym!  A fit body will have less chances of infections and this will be part of my battle too.

Still no news on the job front as of yet. Things are quiet in Paphos at the moment so I may struggle for a while, but I remain optimistic even though I have trouble sleeping at night as I am worried about the mortgage and all the other things that I could have done without worrying in my condition.

Still they say whenever life hands you lemons you should use them with tequila and have a party.. but if I keep doing that I’ll be permanently hammered!  So life can you cut me a break please and perhaps hand me some orange juice instead? 🙂

So hopefully by today I’ll have some great news and more great news next week when I see the radiologist. 🙂

Hope you are all well and fighting the battle.  Even when things get really bad have a good cry, shout obscenities then pull yourself together for the next step. 🙂

Disappointed

So much for being back to “normal”..   I went to Nicosia today to have my ultra sound scan on my boobs and they checked my scar and showed me a new lump.  They said it could be scar tissue, a left in stitch or a lymph node or recurrence.  He called for my radiologist Dr who had a good poke and feel and said rather than wait it out I should have an MRI as he found something dodgy around my rib cage. He said that that could be caused from the radiotherapy.

So at 330 I went for an MRI. They are scary. I didn’t take anyone with me as I thought it was just going to be a simple scan.   The chap though was very friendly and kind and I had to put on one of those robes that does not close on the back again. Darn things.  He put me through the tube and I panicked but after some deep breaths I was OK.  They are the noisiest things ever. Various stages of various noises for nearly half an hour and then an injection of fluid to make my vitals show up.     After what felt like ages I was allowed to leave.

Now I have to wait to hear the results which could come on Friday or Monday.  If they tell me over the phone then its good news. If they ask me to go see them, then its not as no one gives bad news over the telephone. Not doctors anyway.

So here I am hoping for good news, its nothing, its just a stitch, its scar tissue everything is normal. God please let it be normal..

MRI unit. A bed you lie on that goes completely into a tube with just your feet sticking out. Feels like an indian drum party around your head!!