Recurrence & Aggressive

Those are two words you do not want to hear when you are fighting cancer.  Unfortunately today those are the two words I did hear and that are now swimming around in my head.

My doctor said it was fatty tissue that was removed (not a rogue lymph  node), and the pathology once again was positive for malignant metastatic melanoma.

He said that I need to have a chest CT scan to make sure it hasn’t gone anywhere else which I have already arranged for Monday at the General Hospital.  I also had a chest x ray which I will get the results when I see the doctor or when he phones me. This will establish my stage again. Last one was stage 3C

He will discuss my case in further detail with the oncologist and said the most likely treatment as form of prevention that they can give me is a high dose of interferon for one year.  Chemo is only given to stage 4 melanomas that have progressed to the organs. The do not give it to prevent it.

He also said that I may need further surgery should anything appear in the CT to clear out my right armpit a bit further.  I said to my husband they should just remove my armpit and attach my arm to my neck or somewhere else. I might look a bit odd and wave a bit funny too and I probably wouldn’t reach to scratch my back side but that’s why god gave us two hands I guess.  🙂

So a bit of a crap morning for me. I was very upset this time and couldn’t hold it together in his office but was alright again after some deep breaths and he said it was good that I feel good. I said I feel great, I feel the best I’ve had in ages, well I feel fat too but other than that I feel great I said..! Why I told him I feel fat is beyond me.. perhaps they can remove some fatty tissue from my belly, arse and thighs next time..

So now I’m back on the waiting game for results, decisions and more.

On the plus side I am finally going to do my charity singing night to raise money for PASYKAF. (health permitting) An old friend and singing partner Gino who is an excellent guitarist will be assisting me and it will be at the OHM bar in Kato Paphos on Friday the 15th of October. There will be a buffet meal and a raffle and the entry fee is 10 Euros which includes the buffet and raffle prizes.  All proceeds will go to PASYKAF.   I will ad more info later on!

Until then keep praying for me and for those who need you.


So much for being back to “normal”..   I went to Nicosia today to have my ultra sound scan on my boobs and they checked my scar and showed me a new lump.  They said it could be scar tissue, a left in stitch or a lymph node or recurrence.  He called for my radiologist Dr who had a good poke and feel and said rather than wait it out I should have an MRI as he found something dodgy around my rib cage. He said that that could be caused from the radiotherapy.

So at 330 I went for an MRI. They are scary. I didn’t take anyone with me as I thought it was just going to be a simple scan.   The chap though was very friendly and kind and I had to put on one of those robes that does not close on the back again. Darn things.  He put me through the tube and I panicked but after some deep breaths I was OK.  They are the noisiest things ever. Various stages of various noises for nearly half an hour and then an injection of fluid to make my vitals show up.     After what felt like ages I was allowed to leave.

Now I have to wait to hear the results which could come on Friday or Monday.  If they tell me over the phone then its good news. If they ask me to go see them, then its not as no one gives bad news over the telephone. Not doctors anyway.

So here I am hoping for good news, its nothing, its just a stitch, its scar tissue everything is normal. God please let it be normal..

MRI unit. A bed you lie on that goes completely into a tube with just your feet sticking out. Feels like an indian drum party around your head!!