A sigh of relief

So I got my results today.  They had all finished for the day and were all sat in the room and I received my results and got given the all clear. So thats a clear brain (dont comment on that please ha), a clear neck, clear chest (from last time), clear abdomen and pelvis. I was so happy and I was with my son I must have kissed him so many times on the way back to the car trying really hard not to cry from happiness.

So all that I need to do now is see the oncologists on Friday morning, and get my results from the down there doctor.. lol

Yay for clear CT’s and yay for no melanoma. Thank you all for your prayers and well wishes.. they worked.

xx

Results

I finally got a call today from my doctor, he said that its not good, he said that I will need treatment.  I asked if its radiotherapy and he said as that hasn’t worked they will need to find another way of treating it. 

Its bollocks isn’t it. After all the bus rides, the burns, getting fired and now I still have cancer.  How sucky sucky sucky sucky is that.

I want to shout obscenities, I feel like I’ve been punched in my stomach and my whole world has collapsed again. The whole world is happening around me and I just want to shout stop. I want to get off now. I don’t like this ride I want to go on another one please.

So I guess you can say that my melanoma is putting up a fight.  I wont give up though and I have more fight in me, and I refuse to let this beat me.

But for now I’m gonna walk around in a  haze, feel sorry for myself, be really really really pissed off and perhaps shout a few obscenities at the world. 

😦

Good news and bad news

Well you can imagine how I was feeling for a while with the news that I may possibly be poorly again!  However on Thursday I was told that my MRI was all clear! YAY I think what he felt was scar tissue from where the drain entered near my ribs. Its still quite sore there still.

I know have to get my new lump tested today.  I’m seeing the doctor that did both my surgeries who is supposed to stick a needle in it and draw out some fluid. I hope its just a stitch so I can smack him for scaring me and leaving it in the in the first place! haha I do not want to think about the what if. I’m out celebrating tonight in town with all my friends who have supported me throughout all this. So around 10pm Cyprus time, please raise a glass and drink to good health, good friends to you and to me! 🙂 (thanks)

The bad news is I’m now unemployed.   I have to say the timing is rubbish but I haven’t let it get me down. I have plenty to offer a new company and I know they will be lucky to have me.  When one door closes, another one opens.  That’s the way life works.

I just want the all clear. Trivial things are not important when you are given a cancer diagnosis.  So once I get the all clear again after they test my new lump, I can hopefully find a new job as I although I have plenty to offer, no one will want to hire someone if they are suffering from cancer and need lots of treatment.  Talk about the wrong time to be unemployed. But there’s never really a good time to be unemployed. Unless of course you have just won the lottery, then that’s a great time to be unemployed. haha

So watch this space for new lump news. Fingers and toes crossed that its nothing. I could really do with some good news.

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