Road to recovery

Its quite a long one.  You get sick, you get diagnosed, you get treatment then you need to start getting better. Everything changes about you.

My legs are still weak and its frustrating getting up off chairs which sometimes cause me headaches and dizziness so I have to do things slowly.  I darent squat cause I’d never get back up again but I am able to get up off the floor now by myself which is a bonus.   My head is bald apart from a few stubly bits as it appears the chemo tablets made what little had grown fall out.

The doctor prescribed me some stronger anti emetics so nausea stopped and I was able to eat normally again which was fab.  I am off them now for a three week break.

Tomorrow I am having an ultra sound scan to my armpit area as I have a sore bit there which could be scar tissue but its best to get it check out and I a also having my follow up MRI too.

Fingers and toes crossed for good news.

Is it out to get me?

Hey all

Its been a while since I posted.

I’ve been feeling really low recently, nothing seems to make me smile on the inside. Sure I put on this big brave smile and show the world I’m brave but no one can really know what goes on inside someone who has been through this. My brain doctor said its natural after everything I’ve been through. So at least I know I’m not going mad..ha

As much as I remain positive and say to myself I’m fine, I regularly check myself as I know how sneaky melanoma is.  So today I went for an ultra sound scan as I’ve had a niggling pain in my right side.  The chap told me he has found a small circular shadow near my scar in my right boob.

It hasnt really bothered me all day till now. Kinda like a bad cold. Its always worse at night. 

So I’m off to see the surgeons tomorrow so they can have a proper feel and tell me its nothing. Its scar tissue.  If its not I just hope its near enough to the surface so they can chop it out again.

I so hope its nothing. And it really isn’t out to get me. I’ll spend the rest of my life fighting it, but I dont want to spend the rest of my life fighting. I want to live, love and be happy.

So back to the fingers crossed again..